Current mood:

hopeful

The world only spins forward
A joke I heard. Question: What does a gay man bring on a second date? Answer: Second date? What's that?

The general rule of 'funny because it's true' doesn't apply here. No. This is too true, so true that laughing is an impossibility. It hit home, hard.

I went on another date with another new guy...funny, smart, had a great time, yada yada...and then out of my life forever. I can't take it, I'm not meant for this type of life. I can't be casual about relationships, and I don't even want to try to be.

So I'm laying down some new ground rules. Well, just one to start actually, and then I'll go from there. No more putting out. That should weed out some of the problems.

There was talking with MIke last night and today. It went well--there may yet be potential for friendship, though I won't be letting my defenses down again anytime soon.

In other news, today was the Queerific Picnic in the park. I forced Lindsay into coming with me. All in all, it was a good time. There were traditional picnic games of three-legged races and frisbee. Also, my latest obsession, Dylan, was there :)

I first met him almost 2 years ago at Cafe One, but he doesn't remember. I see him on campus all the time, and last week we ran into each other at the QAF night get together, and then again at the general meeting, after which we went for coffee with a couple other people. Today he kept randomly grabbing my arm or bumping into me, and then gave me a piggy back ride for no reason. When it ended, we walked to the bust stop together before going home. He's Mila-style-insane and makes me laugh, so I'm hoping something happens there.

All things considered, I seem to be making some slow, painful progress in my life--we'll see where it goes.